A short conversation about nothing

January 7, 2013



All day I've been feeling bad for myself. It doesn't help that I'm now listening to ambient music while sitting on the floor of my half empty apartment eating the last box of Kraft Dinner (mom, if you're reading this, please send food). While feeling exceptionally dark, I spent the entire evening trying to figure out activities to enhance my mood sans a bottle of red wine. The first option was to shave legs, wash hair and paint nails (I'm boring, whatever) but this meant doing laundry (read: no towels) and my roommate took the nail polish with her. No joke, I nearly text myself sad face emoticons.

The next option was to write a post that read, "New Year New Me: Big Things Happening," where I'd lie to you and myself about doing ass crunches and eating healthy in 2013. Or better yet, I'd recap the entire last year in a few hundred characters. However, since it's taken me exactly three hours to write up to this point, I figure that's not happening anytime soon. To be perfectly honest, I have no clue where I'm going with this post anymore and I just discovered The Cure has been added to Netflix. Can we take a rain check on this conversation?


 (hand-knitted scarf by Scarffaces, Zara Coat, American Apparel hat)

P.s. I'm okay, just having one of those years.

Badley


28 comments:

  1. I am afraid to admit that I might know how you feel. My friend calls them the Britney breakdown years to varying degrees of severity. Let's hope it is just a shadow of a passing cloud.

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    1. Haha, I really like it being termed 'The Britney Breakdown.' Yup, that sums it up perfectly. Thank you!

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  2. I'll probably be still here when you're ready for that conversation.

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  3. Sometimes the best conversations are about nothing. Enjoy your movie!

    xx

    p.s. that Zara coat is killer!

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    1. UH don't get me started on Zara... but actually, I'm planning a post ranting about how they have the worst customer service. It all started with this coat, I'm a little ashamed I kept it but it's too nice to return!

      Thanks for the comment xx

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    2. I agree... Zara's customer service is horrible. I bought jeans there and I didn't know they were ripped until I got home. I went back to exchange it but she was so horrible I just asked for a refund instead.

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    3. YES! EXACT SAME THING HAPPENED TO ME! They wouldn't exchange it and they wouldn't even give me a discount. 3 months later and I'm still steaming over it. The coat also ripped at least 4x afterward and I had to stich it myself (well 3 different adults did it not me, haha)

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  4. It's soooooooooooooo true! It's sometimes hard to be a genuine blogger. Just to gain views most people take to writing about whatever is popular, but you are right, it's about being who you were destined to be. Being yourself is the most important part of being a blogger. I know exactly how you feel, I know exactly what you mean and I think I'm going to learn to be myself and blog about things that I love, and accept that this is who I am and what I love. Thanks for this post. XxX

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    1. The fact that that's what you took away from my two paragraphs of gibberish is astonishing! You're wonderful, and this comment is wonderful. Thank you for this. xx

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  5. This is such a lovely, resonant post, Zoe. I'm so glad that, firstly, you're blogging again and, secondly, you wrote this. It's so easy for observers to pass off another's feelings of pure, untempered sadness, confusion and despair as them simply having "one of those days"; "it'll pass" is often the additional "comforting" phase-of-advice. Sometimes it passes, sometimes it doesn't. Sometimes isolation is the cure, sometimes it's companionship. Every case is different, but they all need time... Oh! And painting one's nails is also really quite good, too!
    Hope you enjoyed the movie and, also, lovely photographs!

    Best Wishes,

    Tara

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    1. You said it better than I did. Thanks for the comment Tara, so happy to be blogging again. xx I also highly recommend the movie if you want a good cry, haha.

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  6. Love this post! Even though you might have felt that you had no idea where the post was going, your words always come across in a great way!

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    1. Kiera you're always the sweetest, xx

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  7. Love the outfit and the post. Sometimes we all have those years....shame about the nail polish though.

    Chloe
    http://thesweetlysour.com

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  8. I just love the honesty in this post. I can't get over it. I'm quite an optimistic person, but I'm feeling this way right now. But you have 356 days left to make this a good year.

    Best of luck,

    M.

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  9. Love your coat!
    http://shradhaloves.blogspot.co.uk/
    S xx

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  10. Love!

    xo Jennifer

    http://seekingstyleblog.wordpress.com

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  11. I'm hearting this post homies..(i feel like we're homies lol)..

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  12. Your coat looks fantastic on you!
    Your words come together so nicely, I know how you feel!

    -Kati

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  13. omg!!! that coat is amazing!! aaaahhh!!!

    Click me for my NEW BLOG

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  14. Cuute coat and beanie combo...just want you to know that your previous poat really inspired me! I completely feel you on losing sight of why you're blogging and all of a sudden writing for everyone else and kinda even hating what yuo posted because it's not even you, and even though you wantt it to be you it's like you don't even really know how to do that anymore. But like you said- you're ambitious and beautiful and worthy of it all- just keep that in your mind and go get it ;)

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  15. The whole outfit is great but the beige coat is the cherry at the top of the ice cream - it suits you perfectly.

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  16. Hi Zoe! What Camera/Lens do you use?

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  17. "If Britney Spears Can Make It Through 2007 Then You Can Make It Through This Day" my new fave thing to read.

    http://www.buzzfeed.com/mjs538/if-britney-spears-can-make-it-through-2007-then-you-can-make

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